My Favorite Holiday

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                                       My Favorite Holiday


    Well seeing as how my birthday is four days after Christmas it is definitely Christmas.  And here's the kicker, it isn't because it is so close to my birthday.  Growing up Christmas was such a wonderful time in our family because everyone came together and spent a whole day being happy and civil with each other.  Differences were put aside and everyone got along even during dinner.  My grandparents always made the holidays that much more magical.  My aunt always went above and beyond with her decorations so it was always a winter wonderland whenever we went to her house during Christmas.

    When my grandparents passed it was like our family fell apart.  You never realize what is holding a group together until it is suddenly not there anymore.  The holidays were never the same after that.  Cut to a few years later and with the loss of my goddaughter so close to Christmas, I didn't even want to hear the word Christmas.  It wasn't until I had my oldest son Gabriel that I returned to the Christmas loving fold.

    I was determined to make every Christmas memorable just for him.  I became more and more determined in the years following his arrival especially almost 4 years ago when I left my children's father.  I splurged and went overboard according to some but for me I was trying to compensate for the failure I felt as a mother for breaking my family up. 

    I took all the blame for the ending of the relationship because it just seemed easier to explain to my children that their daddy was sick and had to go away and get better.  I would rather them think he would get better one day and decide on their own when they are old enough if they want anything to do with him.  I don't believe in poisoning my children against their father no matter how low I think of him.

    I guess that's why each year I go more and more overboard at Christmas and birthdays.  I have tried to make new traditions with my babies so that they always remember that I tried to give them an amazing life to shield them from the harsh realities of this cruel world.  I know its an obscured dream to have and totally impossible to shield them from everything but I can do my best while they are still young enough to be taught the right way.

    I realize this turned into a ramble session but would it really be one of my blog posts if I didn't stray off topic every once in a paragraph or two.  Christmas will always be my favorite because of the looks on my kid's faces on Christmas Day when they wake up and open the gifts I worked so hard to get for them.  Nothing beats the looks on their faces and it fills my heart with so much joy to see them enjoy the little things.

    Hug your children tight and tell them how great and wonderful they are while you can because what you say to them today will stick with them for the rest of their lives.  Make memories and traditions, go on that family trip, take those pictures but enjoy the moment too.  Live for today but remember tomorrow is never promised so cherish every moment you are blessed with.


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