A New Journey

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I'm always learning and growing more as a person each day. I make mistakes like any one else. I try to learn from them and not repeat them but I am human. I buy stuff to fill a hole in me that can never be filled with material things.
I've decided to start decluttering and downsizing to help my anxiety and my emotional health.
I've also wanted to do YouTube since it first came out but I was never brave enough to post my 1st video. I'm actually working on my first video now. Even tho I've recorded several vlogs for therapy, I always delete them.  I'm working on my confidence.
I hope my sharing of my journey through life helps someone in their own struggles. I want to uplift others and let them know they are not alone. We are all fucked upmessed, some just hide it better than other.

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